Whispered Lyrics by Raquel Franco

Lost My Marbles

2008-06-18T07:23:00.000-07:00

I use to have so much balanced on a plate
Not so much anymore these days
Do I have anything left to satiate

Now I grip tightly 3 marbles in one hand
Faith, Hope and Love these three
Are the things I have left upon to stand

It is faith that keeps me from toppling backward
A strong hand pressed gently upon my back
Ever and always there to catapult me forward

The other pulls me out of bed each day
A hope that dreams will come true
that stops me from giving up and paves me a way

The last of me is the marble that holds together my heart
a family who I could not live without
If I ever had to the rest of me would just fall apart

These are the marbles that keep me together
Through the glass I see past my forlorn state
I hope I don’t lose them like the rest
For then my sanity would be lost forever

Unfinished Love Letter

2008-04-02T11:42:00.000-07:00

I tried to write you a love letter
but couldnt find the words
You are perfect in every way
but yet my love is lacking
Always there by my side
you are to hold me in Your arms
The thought of it just warms my heart
but still this heart is broken
that I dont know if its my warm enough
to melt the ice off mine

in progress

2007-12-13T15:28:00.001-08:00

baby, i think i have a crush on you
you crawled and crept in unknowingly
you have nestled right in my sweet spot
how, is unbeknown to you and me

the wings of my heart have spread once again
butterflies two step within the pit of me
feelings are foreign and the language i cannot yet speak
but hopefully we will learn this new culture and see

unsure strangers turned into friends at the start
then from friends, accidental lovers gave birth
awkwardness set sail and we started back at one
giving way to a premonition that we were yet to be apart

all is brand new and i dont know where it is going
perhaps it is just a lifelong friend that i have uncovered
perhaps you'll take a chance on the woman that i am
and on this comfortable journey we'll just keep on sailing

pffftt... i dont like it. but hopefully it will evolve as my feelings do...or dont and all the pieces will just fit together

Orgasm

2007-10-30T10:43:00.000-07:00

who knew it'd be you
a man who provokes me so
would arouse me like I'd never known

it came without warning
a euphoric rush from toe to tip
with my limbs quivering upon your hips

I never knew it existed, this feeling
uncontrollable, vulnerable, erotic and sweet
all this time all I needed was your body and mine to meet

knowing you was all worth it
despite the frustration you caused to me
cause the pleasure u filled me with has set me free

Miss You

2007-06-21T09:51:00.000-07:00

I miss doing the things we used to do
the mundane things and ordinary things
things that made up our humdrum love

walkin in the park alone's just not the same
without you a walk is just a walk
walking without your hand in mine

I imagine our long lost friend, the river, misses us
no more picnics with her, or canoe rides on her back
the river's ripples, they flow on without us

hollow silence has filled my sundays
tickling plus giggles minus you sums up this silence
a equation that lately seems hard to bear

i miss you friend of mine
miss you lover divine
i just miss you
just

Letting go

2007-02-06T10:50:00.000-08:00

Letting go can be hard to do
Releasing the grip of someone who's become a piece of you
It aches inside into the deepest part
Wounding your once completed heart
But Hope lies therein the light of day
Sunrise whispers, "It wont always be this way."
A day will give birth to a realization
Freedom is now comfort to your emotions
The letting go has now left an available space
For someone else who deserves you to take their place

Burning

2007-01-25T16:49:00.000-08:00

It burns. Eveything does; my eyes from the tears, my mind from these thoughts, and my heart for this loss...mostly my heart. Any minute I may stop, drop and roll.

It's all settled in now. The memories they are engulfing me. The absense of love is filling every room. The silence is deafening. Like flickering flames it suffocates.

Broken

2007-01-23T13:43:00.000-08:00

Where does the love go? How does it disappear so quickly? How does a passion so intense and sweet just release its grip? I am mourning the loss of the love more than the one who gave it to me. Is that strange? I think so. I find it odd and peculiar. I feel empty and alone and stupified that the person I ignited with is so far from my mind. I cant even remember what the glide of his fingers feels like on my face. I have lost the sound of his laugh and the smell of his skin. 1000 miles has seperated our hearts. 1000 miles equals bitterness and forgetfulness. 1000 miles has cost me the love of my life. 1000 miles away...1000 f-in miles.

Lil Ole Ladies

2007-01-23T13:41:00.000-08:00

Lil Ole Lady
Your voice is so sweet
Soft are you as you shuffle your feet

Lil Ole Lady
In a roller set with hair so white
Your eyes underneath have lost their site

Lil Ole Lady
With wrinkles woven in your hands
Proof of wisdom that only you can understand

Lil Ole Lady
Today, I smiled at you
For your are a sign of what life has been through

Quote from Paint it Black

2006-10-20T10:10:00.000-07:00

Page 1:

Nobody ever really loved a lover. Because love was a private party, and nobody got on the guest list.

- Janet Fitch

Mouth Closed

2006-09-11T08:05:00.000-07:00

When I'm in pain
the words bleed
but the sound won't come out
the music stays silent
but the words ramble on
when I'm in pain (like this)

Broken In

2006-09-11T08:01:00.000-07:00

I prefer cool rain over blazing sunshine.
I'm often depressed is that a sign
that my loathing of sun
is the cause of my undone?
I'm comfortable in it.
Melancholy has broken in.

Untitled

2006-09-11T07:27:00.000-07:00

big excitement bubbling over
for new adventures in site

small fear at the back of my throat
for fail you just might

but it won't be the final conclusion
just dust yourself off and remeber sucess is not an illusion

Mother

2006-08-18T13:14:00.000-07:00

Scream at the top lungs
oh you make me do
Cry from the pit of stomach
you reduce me to

Minute one filled with joy
the cause of understanding and consoling
Minute Five rage unfolds
the result of your selfishness and nagging

We are so close yet far away
Mother why's it so hard to know me through and through?
Look and sound the same us two
Mother, you're an idiot for not seeing me in you?

No matter how good things get
It all ends with me shaking my head
Frustated and aggravated
It all just leaves me wishing this were dead

But as the thought leaves my brain
I am filled with regret and sadness
cause no matter what you're still my Mother
even though between us there's no gladness

Come Fall by Raquel Franco

2006-08-10T09:09:00.000-07:00

Come to me
come to me Fall

on me let the leaves fall
crisp and crunchy
bright and warm hues

hot down my throat
let it fall
hot and sweet
cider warms my feet

come to me
come to me Fall

I wait for it to spring forth, Fall
squash and pumpkins
sweaters and tweed jackets

wrapped up in it
come fall
cozy in my blanket
is Fall here yet?

come to me
Fall come to me.

Sleepy

2006-07-05T12:28:00.000-07:00

eyes feel droopy
minutes go by ticking
my pupils follow time
I begin to feel loopy

time is still crawling
my heart, it is beating
together they are waltzing
my black lashes slowly falling

my eyelids they meet
together at last
since the morning
a second nap, so sweet

You by Raquel Franco

2006-05-10T21:26:00.000-07:00

You are proof that humans can't be trusted
Your selfish acts leave me disgusted
My faith in you is evidence of my stupidity
My anger at you eats away at purity
How do I cleanse myself of you
wash away this hate and jealousy you've put me through
Your beauty and false kind words were hypnotizing
The thing we had built in my eyes was mesmorizing
But the secrets you hide, I must have missed
Blindfold off, does true beauty even exist
Will I ever find loyalty in a human life
Or is nature to hurt and twist the knife
Because of your betrayal I have lost hope in this woman race
Flesh wounds will heal but heart ache creates an empty space

Homeless Heart

2006-04-18T08:24:00.000-07:00

My heart is homeless in my own home

Walking up and down the stairs
without anyone there
nobody that cares
for me

Alone in my room
as the family dines together
will they miss me soon

so I sit and wait
the day gets late
and I still wait

no one sees the tears
invisible I am
in my home

this homes not mine
I realize
I'm a stranger materialized
no none hears my cries

my heart is homeless
inside my home
it's not a home at all
abadoned by my heart
my heart, my homeless, heart, heart

Untitled

2006-04-18T08:18:00.000-07:00

Am I not as pretty as the one who's by my side?
You said hi to me then,
when I was with my pretty friend.

Now it's just me alone,
just a sweatshirt and jeans.
How u ignore me, what does it mean?

You conived your way into my bed
You enjoyed it then.
In the light we're not friends?

What the hell is wrong with you?
You fake asshole.
The neglegance has taken it's tole.

I have a soul.
I have a brain.
I'm not just some girl, I'm not a girl without a name.

Practical by Raquel Franco

2006-04-14T11:13:00.000-07:00

Love is not practical
makes no sense about it
No, I wouldn't doubt it
Makes more sense than practical

Engaged at first site is not practical
It's love
Giving up your life for someone
no, not practical
just love
it's beauty

Love is freeing, no planning
no practicality
Love is risky, care free, exciting
no such practicality

Love is not practical
makes no sense about it
No, I wouldn't doubt it
Makes more sense than practical

Run away with me baby
No practicality
Give it all up for me
Love, it’s all lovely

Run away with me
Run away
It’s not practical
It’s just love
Love, crazy, passionate, earratic

Love is not practical
makes no sense about it
No, I wouldn't doubt it
Makes more sense than practical

Beat

2006-04-03T09:05:00.000-07:00

By Raquel Franco

My heart beat is slow
beat...beat
Emotions are low
beat...beat

Don't know what it is
But I know what it's not
beat...beat

No joy in the morning
beat...beat
No energy for soaring
beat...beat

Don't know what it is
But I know what it's not
beat...beat

Just want to sleep tight
beat...beat
even though it's not night
beat...beat

Don't know what it is
But I know what it's not
beat...beat

When will I awake
beat...beat
only so much I can take
beat...beat

losing breath over time
beat
can't, I flatline

Country Cruise by Raquel Franco

2006-03-31T12:32:00.000-08:00

I'm on a boat with three country boys
And this brown girl it sures annoys
just wanna here some rythm and blues
and get off this damn honkey tonk cruise

Pain Held Hostage

2006-03-31T12:31:00.000-08:00

By Raquel Franco

tears held hostage in my eyes
pain stays trapped inside failing to hide
lack of tears
equals visible pain
sums visible weakness
shame is the keyholder
I am this prisoner

Can't Get Enough by Raquel Franco

2006-03-29T09:07:00.000-08:00

Alone in the dark
I dream of your scent
awaking in your arms
to swallow me whole

burrow into me, my love
your touch makes me ravenous
every touch is not enough
I want apart of your soul

be intertwined with mine
I open myself to you
go deeper and deeper
take me I'm yours to keep

the pleasure equals sadness
cause it cannot last forever
which kiss will be the last
don't stop, don't stop for I'll weep

the intensity is mounting
I dig myself into you
I long for this each day
for the night to turn into each other

everything is naked before you
as the love climaxes
it's you that causes these tears
for you in me is where I take cover

Grateful, I think

2006-03-28T09:32:00.000-08:00

By Raquel Franco

I am truly grateful
I think
Do they know that I'm grateful?
Does it show?
I think

Or am I really selfish?
I don't know
Do they see right through me
the desperate gratitude
and see the selfish me?
I don't know

Remembering the Bases

2006-03-28T09:24:00.000-08:00

By Raquel Franco

I miss the first times
touching all the bases

consuming excitement
of speeding up the paces

the first time I felt his fingers
with guilty, painful pleasure suddenly down there

the first time I knelt on my knees
shameful, yet empowered longing for it to end

the first time I was entered into
drunk, a mistake I could not mend

ok, so maybe I don't miss them as much as I once thought.

I Wonder

2006-03-28T09:18:00.000-08:00

by Raquel Franco

I wonder all the time
My thoughts are filled with questions
none of which I mention

Does he know that I am grateful?
can he see how I appreciate?
all from him, that my life is satiate

But am I truly thankful
but selfish and undeserving?
Should I be more giving and more serving?

I don't know. Will I ever?
I guess I'll never know.
If it's the greatest love I show.

Thirteen

2006-03-28T09:11:00.000-08:00

by Raquel Franco

my sister said "i love you"
for the first time

she said what?
said I love you to a boy

but she's wise beyond her years
you know

says, "it's just puppy love."
"I won't be with him forever"

huh, when i was a child
i went wild
thought it'd last forever

so different at thirteen

Journal Entry: January 26th, 2006

2006-03-24T08:10:00.000-08:00

I am having one of those moments. I have just finished reading the pages of a fantastic book. My mind is churning as I take it all in. I am in awe of this author who had made a permanent place in my heart for his heroin. A desire to write anything that is as half as good burns inside me right now. I feel such peace and at the same time such sweet sorrow. A relationship formed while reading Sayuri's story and now it's over. People ask me how I can read books over and over? Well, it's cause I have to re-visit my friends. I already miss my new friend, and I only just put the book down moments ago. The tale of this geisha and beauty about her and the city that she lives in seems so magnificent that while I was reading my eyes were widened like a child tasting her first piece of candy. My eyes are still shining. The imagery is so vivid I my mind. I yearn to see what has been delivered to me. Memoirs of a geisha will always be a memory in my heart.

NYCity

2006-03-24T07:57:00.001-08:00

Somethin within me resonates
Once upon a time I fell in love
so much that it causes me to hesitate

I fell hard for this cold-blooded city
yeah, I did fall
from the sparkle right down to the nitty gritty

Ever since my very first bite
saviouring the fruit of its culture
the first taste of passion birthing in my site

I know once I'm back everything will be alright
constant desire will satiate
but far way is where I lay my head tonight

Dreaming of my long distant love affair
she's real and tempermental
NYcity, I'll get there I swear

Fed Ex Delivery

2006-03-24T07:32:00.000-08:00

Fed Ex guys are kinda sweet, it's true
they bring the mail
and compliments too

he comes in everyday and smiles
flattering me out of denile

My heart belongs to another
but the Fed Ex guy makes it flutter

His charm is the perfect cure
for me, who's confident insecure

Flattery, a new found package to me
Til Monday at 10 I wait for another delivery

Note: Somethin cute I wrote about the Fed Ex guy at work that has a crush on me.

Miss You

2006-03-24T06:47:00.000-08:00

miss you friend
I miss you so bad it hurts

things never were quite right
wrong day
wrong year
wrong lifetime, I suppose

I hope one day I'll see you again

I dream of waking up to you like the sunrise
seeing all of my future in your eyes

I miss you friend

never had anyone quite like you
no one shakes my soul quite the way you do

maybe if we'd never crossed that line
couldn't help myself
you had to be mine

I accepted the invitation into your bed
the moment was sweet
the latter was bitter
wish we had resisted instead

I'd give anything to feel the way I do when I am with you
just one more chance

I miss you friend
I miss you...

Poem: Untiltled

2006-03-24T06:21:00.000-08:00

I never met you
but you captured my heart
i put it in a bottle
we're never apart
I won't let go
no, no, not tonight
i won't loosen my grip
the timing's not right
you give me hope
in your lyric of song
the sins that we've made
it can't all be wrong
I am encouraged by you
your deep sultry whisper
It sings to me
and makes me feel stronger
Never leave me
you've captured my heart
I carry you with me
without, I fall apart

Poem: One Smile

2006-03-24T06:17:00.000-08:00

the world weighed me down today
alone I was
surrounded by the moody crowd
i can't explain why I feel this way
alone we are
traveling from hour to hour
I saw you across the way
am I alone?
for now i smile
now I'll get through the rest of the today
not alone
cause of one look, one smile